What I Want

A lot goes on in my mind, some thoughts are said out loud, but most are kept in. The ones that are kept in are either oppressed in the back of my mind because I don’t want to think about them or they just don’t dawn on me. The ones that are said out loud are said; I’m sure people hear them, but do people really listen? Most do, at least I think so.

Watching a movie with an disclosed name (I don’t want you to laugh at me lol), had me entertained. It also had me thinking (good movies should always have you thinking) about what I want for myself. The main characters all had something in common, they are all single. I’m single.

They want a relationship. I realized I want a relationship. There were some things that I realized I wanted, but don’t have. When I will get it, I’m not sure… I’m not even sure if I will ever get it.

Here’s a list of what I want:

  • I want to be loved…. and not the love where you just say you love me, but the love that makes you weak in your knees. The love that hurts so you much, you cry. I want the love that lets me know you will always be around when I need you, whether you’re a friend, lover or family member.
  • I want good sex…. not just the 5 minute sex where I get my nut off and leave. I want the good sex that makes me think about the moment even while I’m dreaming. I want the sex that might be 2 hours, but feels like we were at that moment for a whole day. I want the sex that makes me not regret giving you what’s known as my “manhood;” the sex that keeps me wanting to come back. The sex that makes me never want to leave your side because you make me feel so good.
  • I want the job that makes me smile all day, everyday. The job or career I should say that not only gives me enough money to live and help others if needed, but a career that I love waking up to head to and a career that makes me sad when I leave it. I want my name  in a top position, whether it’s mine or someone else’s.
  • I want the house, the nice big house, which I can call home. Not too flashy, but enough to make myself, my friends, family and even God himself impressed. I want the home where I’m not in the woods or middle of no where (I get paranoid about that). I want the home where I’m not living near the ruckus of the city, but still have that hustle and bustle nearby.
  • I want to travel all around the world, be able to say I’ve been to all 7 continents (I have 4 more to go). I want to have enough memories to of these journeys with anyone who’s willing to listen.
  • If I have children, I want them to experience as much as possible… have the good experiences I did, as well as the bad. It will help them become a better person. I want them to be their own person and experience other things I didn’t (hopefully better). I want them to be able to come to me whenever possible and I want them to experience some of the mistakes I saw through others or experienced myself.
  • I want to still get older every year, but be able to always hang out with my friends. At least once a month or once every 2 months would be good. I want to be able to stick with those who stuck by me through good and bad because I always want to do onto others as I would want to be done onto me.
  • I want the wife who’s down for being with me because she feels and knows it’s the right thing to do. The one that’s willing to travel the world with me, the one that’s willing to meet and love my family and friends. The one that’s willing to make me feel good in every way and vice versa. The one that’s willing to put up with my flaws and still take me in.
  • I want to make everyone around me happy the best way I can. I want to make sure that they are well taken care of and I can always have them around me no matter how near or far. I want to know if they will always be there or not because if they plan on leaving, I want to let them go now so I don’t have to experience the drama, the pain and the heartache later.
  • I want time to be a better person; there’s always room for improvement each and every day.
  • I want to grow old, be able to tell all my story. At least make it to see 80 years old to see myself and everyone around me grow.
  • I want to feel so relaxed, so calm, so good that it feels like I always have that after nut feeling….. tension released.

I know I’m saying a lot of what I want, but guess what…. this is my blog! So I say what I want! I want you to respond as well. I might not get everything on this list accomplished, but I want at least one or two of these checked off in the upcoming years.

One Response to “What I Want”
  1. sdukez says:

    Whoa. Whoa. Whoa. I loved this. The main things I want (that I see you want to)

    I want to be happy
    I want to be loved
    I want to one day make a great wife
    i want to have a career/job I’ll wake up wanting to go to happily
    I want to have a kind of impact on the world or on those around me.. A good one though

    Oh, don’t let me get emo on this. Great post

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